|Coming March 1, 2013|
Maybe I should title this, "When it rains, it pours." Or even, "What I did on my holiday vacation."
When I first signed up to blog today, I'd planned to share pix and talk all about the highly anticipated Christmas visit with my mom. Since my dad's passing, she's spent the holiday with each of my brothers, but not with us--because we get the crazy winter weather here in Nebraska, and she's pretty leery of traveling in bad weather. Who can blame her? But I digress...
Nothing about the last couple of weeks of December and New Year's was what I'd planned for or expected. I'd cleaned my house within an inch of its life. I'd decorated like I haven't in years. I planned menus. Scheduled travel dates. Planned my writing schedule so I could have 2 weeks to just enjoy the time with my family. Now as a Girl Scout, a teacher and a mom, I know that life rarely goes exactly as expected, and that I should be prepared for anything. But, I will confess, the chaos and emotional upheavals of my holidays this year got to me. At first, I was depressed. There was anger in there along the way--frustration, too. Finally, I just had to laugh. And count my blessings.
So let me share some of the highlights of my holiday.
1. Traveling down the highway on my way to Missouri to pick up my mom in Kansas City and bring her home to Nebraska, my car died. Didn't just get a flat or pop a hose. The engine was completely blown and my faithful vehicle died at the intersection of two highways. Fortunately, I could get off the Interstate. Fortunately, there were many wonderful people who helped me that day. I was completely safe. But my car...? Rest in peace.
3. Plan C (or maybe we were on F or G by now). The dealer who was trying to repair my car said there was nothing they could do but put in a new engine for several thousand dollars. At that price, we figured we'd take the plunge and invest in a new car (it was nice not having a car payment while our son is in college, but we needed a vehicle). Highways clear. New car ready and prepped to go. Mom's visit will be much shorter, but I miss her and want to spend some time with her. So, of course...
4. My mom went into the hospital with symptoms of a heart attack. I can't tell you how frustrating and frightening it is to live so far away from a parent who needs you. Fortunately, she was already in Kansas City, visiting friends, so she got treatment right away. Plus, my younger brother lives in the area, and he got there pronto and kept us all informed on Mom's condition. Thankfully, it turned out not to be a heart attack, but with all the tests the hospital ran on her, they diagnosed two conditions that did need treatment, and she is home and well and getting stronger and sassier every day. But, as you might guess, Mom never did get up to Nebraska to spend the holidays with us.
I talk to my mom nearly every day, and count my blessings even more often. So I didn't get my big Christmas. My mom is safe and being well-taken care of. My guys and I had a quiet, fun Christmas Day. No one if my family had any problems with the weather. And I have a spiffy new (to me) car.
But times like that does wreak havoc on one's emotional equilibrium. I found it practically impossible to write through all that, and I have a deadline. So now, I have to knuckle down hard this month. I have to remind myself that writing books is a job. And like any other job, I may not always want to do it, but I must do it. My family, my editor, my readers and my own sense of accomplishment are depending on me doing that job. Fortunately, I can let my characters take over and tell their story until I can get on my creative and emotional feet again.
And should I mention that our furnace broke down during the cold weather? It's still gerry-rigged to run until a replacement part arrives. I'm a writer, and I can't make this stuff up. Sigh.
Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. And please, count your blessings!
|Accidental Bodyguard plus a Bonus story--ebook only|